well as most know I live in the desert. well not THE desert, more like a valley , and not THE valley. but it is a valley. and well were I live it get pretty hot. I mean REALLY hot. The heat starts early like april-ish. While I was in school for most of april and still wearing sweaters and pants[ thats all that I own at this time because I went shopping only for winter and spring in bay area but never thought about what I was going to wear in the summer, didnt think I was going to be home in the summer either] [ok i forgot where i was going with this] anyways I think I was rambling on about how hot it is and all lim have are warm bay area clothes, but because I am a native of san diego, I can survive the bay area a little more then a native of the valley. so my clothes are kinda similar to everyone elses but I have just one more layer.
ok moving on! ....... never mind I think this post wont be much of a good read but more of a random thought post... i think I may have a lot of those since I am really random and I have lost my notebook where I write all my random thoughts down so now they are stuck in my head clogging up everything, it sucked when I was in school I always made sure to bring my notebook and set it next to me during lectures and kept it with me when I did my homework so I dont end up focusing to much on the randomness and can get it out and then move one. but lately I have been trying new notebooks but nothing seems right about it like the notebook I had lost was the only one I could write in. [man all this right and write is making think quite a bit].... wow i suck at typing when i am tired ... i might have to go through this in the moring to try to figure out some of the words that didnt get fully processed through my brain.
mmka
i will try again later.
good night i know its early but I didnt get much sleep last night and I didnt get in a nap and i had to babysit so I couldnt take a power nap, or I would have two very upset babies pulling at me to swing them or feed them or they might have even broken my glasses. my little cousin has this thing about wearing things that others were wearing like bracelets necklaces, glasses, sunglasses, shoes. anything really. and today she kept going for my new sunglasses.
I dont know why I even open my blinds at night I get scared to look out the window thinking something is going to jump in front of my window so I dont look at it but I cant have my back to it since I am afraid for the same reason some one is going to jump up break in and scare me.
I keep looking at my wall and all the magizine pages that I really like are on my wall they give me inspiration to my style and what I draw or make or even write about. well lately I have been noticing more and more all the headbands in all the pictures I was thinking, well more of ask my mom to make me all the clothes headbands since the last time I was infront of a sewing machine I wanted to chuck it out the window and then run it over several times with the truck but i didnt. I kept myself undercontrol and just kept it to a low screaming at the machine type deal, everyone down my street now knows that I dont sew.
well anyways... its hot. I am tired and I just realized that if i put all the change I have inmy room together and the check in my wallet and the cash hidden all over my room [my dog growls in his sleep i really hope he isnt dream about me they say you shouldnt wake people up if they are having and intense dream or sleep walking or something like that well is it the same for dogs. I wont try it. I might go find a long stick and poke him but i dont want him to rabid on me if he was having one of those dreams that he was hunting or something and he thinks I am his prey and then eats me ew I wonder if dogs taste food like we do, like if we eat a chicken we know its chicken but we also know if its bad tasting chicken or really good lemon chicken that I will actually get to eat instead of the dog eating all the leftovers in the pan when we turn our backs for a little while. .... if someone actually reads to this point and I mean reads every word then they must be more bored then I am ... mmka bed time. I will have to finish later
